Things are looking up finally! I am actually quite excited about what has been going on lately. Although I am pretty exhausted from working 30 hrs a week on top of school, and not sleeping or eating well, I am slowly getting through it.
I got nominated for the Windgate Fellowship Award from the Center for Craft Creativity and Design through KCAI! I know it means more work to do, but I am excited to try for something really big like this. It is weird to see my blood, sweat, and tears paying off in this way.
I applied for the JET program. I don't hear back till January if I get an interview or not, which is ok since that is when I turn in my Windgate application. Hypothetically I will only have to worry about one thing at a time.
Ben and I are finally moved out of our old place and into our new! (for the most part) but still! A huge load has been lifted off my shoulders, and I am excited to make our new place homey.
Ok, so none of these are actual "happenings", but they are things that could lead to big happenings. The most exciting thing about all this stuff is that it is giving me confidence to try out for big new things. I am really thankful for all the people who have been helping me along the way (and there are so very many.) I know chances for getting these grants and jobs are slim but it is encouraging to see so many people supporting me. Cheesy right? I could almost barf with how happy and cheesed out I am.
today was the first time in a long time that i brought something to my fiber critique that i was not at least 75% happy with or proud of. maybe it's stress from moving, or working, or the fact that i have only slept about 12 hours this week in total. but bad excuses aside, i sucked today and it made me sad.
i don't know what i'm doing or where i'm going with my work lately.
the negativity is brewing like a hurricane-torndao hybrid. no bueno.
i just really need to reevaluate my process and materials and how they are going to affect the whole picture. i am struggling like a drowning cat.
there's my negativity creeping up again.
what happened to my senior goals of being positive? and making badass things?
took some photos of my knit garments last week. here are just a few. keep in mind that i am no photographer but with the help of christina's modeling and nathan's lighting skills, they turned out pretty good.
ok, so i am apparently really bad at updating. i need to carry my camera around more often so i can post up any visual stimulation.
school has started. i was excited until i realized this is my last year. as my title implies, i am nervous and horribly anxious. it is only day three and the pressure to make sweet ass bfa work is upon me and i feel as always the same way i felt the first day of college. f.u.c.k.e.d.
but alas, with my new senior attitude of being positive, (not as easy as it may seem), i am going to get through it and attempt at this bfa thing. wish me luck.
things i've been thinking about .... do ho suh's fallen star
although it's summer, all the stresses of doing dumb responsible adult loan crap has been making me daydream about knitting again and knitting big. so i've started making some new chunky knot knit necklaces and have started machine knitting a gray strip to hopefully hand knit something like this...
but BIGGER! because bigger is better. not really, but in this case, it will be.
I have also been doing lots of net searching for wonderful knit inspirations done by other students/designers.
this is '09 graduate work by Sarah Benning from westminster. i actually found out about her by liz and kim who suggested i look at her work after seeing mine. and it's probably not a big surprise that i love the work she does.
Benning has such a solid concept/collection and a strong way to mix print work with knitting. something that i have a hard time executing.
gahhh envy! must keep working.
photo from (http://www.pickles.no/sideways-braid-bolero)